Weird way to start a blog...

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Does anyone else just feel empty? Like you've tried everything to be happy but you can't be? If so, then I think we might get on well :)                                                                     Everything's a blur at the moment and I'm not sure what's real and what's not. I live in different realities because I'm sick of the world and all of its shitty double standards. Sometimes I wish I could leave it but I'm too scared to do it myself. It's not even like I have a bad life, in fact, my life is amazing. I have an amazing family and the greatest friends I could ever ask for, and yet I still hate the whole living thing? I just feel like I'm being selfish. I know my friends have actual problems and I wish I could help them, but all I do is talk about me. I try so hard not to, and of course I always ask if their ok, and listen to them, but I talk about myself too.                                                            My parents want me to see a doctor about my brain and now I'm scared of both my mum and dad, which is brilliant because I live with them and I panic every time they talk to me. 

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